Thursday, October 28
08:58
Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting
ADRENALINE!
This is what happens when you have one entire bowl of strawberries which were awesomely sweet, and that was to sweeten up the whole of yesterday, which was already sweet. Haha. Well well. Biology practicals are TODAY. Reporting to school in say, 3 hours time? Then the fate for my biology grade is gonna be partially decided. Yesterday I barely touched the computer. YAYNESS. Went to
library@orchard, which has fabulous deco. Haha, the outside thingie wingie. It was really nice. Studied and drew some irritating fruits, figured where to pericarp this that everything was, then went to Kino to buy protracter cos someone irritating took it. DONT KNOW WHO! ): so now i dont have a nice protracter. And Im so gonna cry. After that, studied till 6, headed home in 143. (: splendid. Byebye. lovelove!
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I knowI won't forget you
cutelink. (: ARE YOU DUMB?!
EEEK. bio sucked.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Tuesday, October 26
09:10
When I'm in a crowd,
I run an island by myself.
Then I look around,
Wishing I was somewhere else.
Then I can't believe;
You hit me fast and hard.
When you turned to me and say,
Never change the way you are.
Beautiful Hilary Duff song.
SOMEONE! Chop my fingers off now. I dont wanna type away frantically at this blasted keyboard and regret during the Chem exam in Nov, cus I know practically NOTHING, ZILTCH about damn organic acids, ESP carboxylic acids AND alcohols. I dont know about those damn polymerisation and ester thingies. Like all I know is that they're sweet. Diediedie. ):
Im so so so not concentrating now. Cannot sit down, open the idiot shou ce and read it. I CAN'T! Neither can I memorise those zao jus. The only subject I can say Ive touched during this 2week break is MATHS. DRATS. Maybe English too but the rest?!!! DIE. ):
BYEBYE. Going to eat my roti prata. (: hahaha. shall become OPTIMISTIC. (: I WILL GAO DIM MY ORGANIC ACIDS. YAYYYYY.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Sunday, October 24
19:10
No stars in the sky,
How lonely am I,
To be the guy,
For you and I.
To touch the sky;
And never say bye.
HILARIOUSLY CUTE.
did i spell hilarious correctly?!
shit, ENGLISH IS ON WEDNESDAY!
):
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Saturday, October 23
19:46
PRETTY PINNK STARS. (:
VJC VJC VJC.
wanna be there with van and go crazy.
YEAH BABY!
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Monday, October 18
16:45
Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour
I know for sure, all of my days are
Held in Your hands, crafted into Your perfect plan
whafkaegjklaegtaeruilgrasklaafweiogakl! woohooheehaaa. the practicals for chem/physics are over! okay, thank God for guiding me through it, holding my little hand whilst i poured alot of solution P into that testtube. (: love JESUS loads! He was like beside me, telling me what to do! (: haha, actually, the invigilator sucked. everything was like "girls! get them yourself ah, come to the front to get them" gosh, and they actually get paid.
Dear God, please please please help me. I need You by my side now, to guide me through these 5 weeks or so. Let me have the discipline to sit down and plonk my butt down on the chair, and not be so itchy fingers and touch the computer, touch my handphone this that everything. Let me have the concentration to revise my work, to do everything that You want me to do. And not waste my time on stuff that can be cared for after Os. I pray that You'll bless all my darlings out there who are mugging equally hard if not harder and that we'll shine during the Os, for You God. Thank You. Oh, and here's something i wanna tell You: i love You!
back to books. must get my star on the wall. it'll be so pretty i bet you if i told them to spray paint it pink they would! (: heee. my pink star! (:
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Sunday, October 17
11:22
ooh yeah. i remembered the 5 rules we wrote to MR NG already!
1. dont say you're 'confucious' when you're confused.
2. a protractor cannot 'protect' you.
3. things belong to people, people don't belong to things.
4. don't boil your ruler ever again.
5. remember us always like we'll remember you.
somehow, i dont feel like school has ended. i dont feel like 4E6 is separated already. i still feel that we're somehow united even as we're mugging for the Os, during our study leave. the picnic on friday was good. had bonding time even as emmeline "sai-sai"-ed the whole time round. ive uploaded the pictures we took on friday. and thursday. im gonna miss every single one of you. ally! this is for you to read ah, dont mind can u just click on the links and click the save all function? like that easier, cus i dont have a CD burner. (: thanks.
picturesonfridae!
lovelove4E6 (:
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Thursday, October 14
16:39
These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way to better say
I love you
I love you, is that okay?
LOVE THAT SONG TO BITS. grad assembly was just plain sad. and it really brought back lotsa memories. it was good good good. the dedications to the teachers were cute cute cute. then came the dancing in the assembly area, the pictures (RETARDED) we took with mr low, gosh, he was retarded in a funny way. the whole flower thing was.. uh. lame. and mr ng's 5 rules were soooo cute! i want that powerpoint presentation. yes, bev and van, i know you two are dying for the pics last time as well (the four of us after watching MANONFIRE, as well as the
HEERENpictures) as todaes pics (
GRADassembly!), but! i promise u and i assure you i will get them up asap! i hope bev darling and mummy min can find people to switch with so we four can sit together and pai pai zhuo! gonna be so cool. gonna make sure my cam has twice the amount of batt it has now! study leave begins starting from tomorrow. im gonna make full use of my time, not gonna regret for the things i didnt do now. (:
to FOURESIX. you gurls really rock. the bestest class ive ever had. thanks for making my days in STMARGS so bearable, with you gurls' lame jokes and the care you all shower upon all of us. you all add spice to my life, bringing colour to every single aspect of my 2 years in THREEESIX, FOURESIX. remember 4th JUNE forever okay, FOURSIX day. (: hope to see you all there every year. (: love you all.
pictures are here (: yayness. jean kwek! better make this all into one nice shiny glittery disk ah! if you all have ur own galleries pls kindly tag on the board with the url and i'll thank you and love you all my life!
heeranday! [FOURSOME!]
FOURESIX! [gradASSEMBLY!]
...and as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be friends forever.
WHAT DOESNT KILL US MAKES US STRONGER!
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Wednesday, October 13
18:42
If you see me walking the road with someone else,
It's not because I like his company.
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat
If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him..
But because you're not there to catch me fall
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with.
Don't let me talk of him,it's you I want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for him,It's you I want to fall in love with.
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to loose our friendship
When you thought I wasn't there to catch you,
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch
If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Tuesday, October 12
15:11
Hold on little girl
Show me what he's doone to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you
Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile
OOH YEAH! love this song. HELLO SHEENI AND JEAN (if yoou all are here for the pics? scroll down on the right) (:
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Monday, October 11
17:01
im the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you feel it too
ARGH screwed weekend up. who cares, everythings alrite now. AHHH! pracs are in one week's time. time's ticking so fast. im scared! i spotted this really nice place selling cheap nice prom dresses. hahahaa. that has to wait till 22nov. AHHHHHHHHHHH. okay, back to books. (:
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Thursday, October 7
16:01
im scared. so scared. terrified. and afraid of losing you three as friends. im scared that when we go to JC, you two will always have each other, but me and her having no one to talk to. im afraid of losing you three. i know its easy saying yes, we'll keep in touch, but when we're really in that situation, is it possible to really talk to each other, conference this that everything? im scared that when you all go to aust, she and me will really be left lost. im gonna be jealous. you two are gonna make new friends. and soon, im just gonna be another one on your stand-by list of friends. im so afraid that'll happen. remember how we promised that we wont lose contact with
her? what happened in the end? we did lose contact in a way. im afraid that exact senario will repeat itself. you know i dont want that to happen right? i really dont. i dont wanna lose you three at all. if i had a choice, you know that i would go to ac right? but im sorry, i dont think i will be able to base my choice of jc on whether both of you are going away. you know that i really wanna be with you two. you know that. as far as im concerned, really, i hope that we'll stay together and really keep in touch! remember when you shouted shit you at that girl today? and i told you i imagined us at your wedding holding your ring and ure nice pretty gown and someone drops it and you shout shit you? well, i dont mind that happening. besides the shit you part lah. love you three loads. and you three know it best.
You are the way the truth and the light
i live by faith and not by sight for You
and you, yeah whatever i know. most prob this will just be crap to you. but anyways, if you go into sa, and dont have friends, dont worry. cus i'll be your "best friend" yeap. but this is not the point anyways.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Sunday, October 3
17:27
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway
i hate the way i dont hate you.
(chubb's nick! borrow for a while ah chubb.)
i really do.
(okay, return you now chubb.)
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Saturday, October 2
22:37
"BEVERLY WONG. you're driving me up the wall. i dont wanna be separated from you. neither do i want to leave van. i wanna stay foursome forever. i really do. now you wanna go AC, i go AC. if you wanna go SA, i'll go SA (though i doubt my mummy will let). if you go australia, im gonna cry buckets, litres and maybe even an ocean full of tears. knowing the crybaby i am. yeah. i doubt that'll be anything shocking. i dont want you to go. i want you to stay. let God lead the way."
just as i made up my mind, this thing crops up. sigh. really. i dont know what im gonna do. i want us four to stick together. if one of us leaves singapore, it'll be impossible for us to go wacky again. spend time at the arcade playing datona, shooting cute lil ugly aliens and playing that thingie that we love. (okay, maybe me only.) if either one of us leaves singapore, no more "sexy naughty bitchy me" MTVs outside heeren, no more piggy-backs and hugs and kisses. no more nice darling neoprints already. i dont want to be separated from you three. beverly, no matter where you go, even if its aust (SOB.) for 6-7 years, promise. promise you'll never forget us. the foursome you had in secondary school. even if it was just a single second of your hectic school schedule, promise. promise we'll stay in your heart forever. thats all i ask for. -prays. i really hope we go to the same school eventually. or better still, same workplace. you three are one of life's greatest friends. and i promise i'll treasure you all.
to four six girls: its that time again. the time we have to say our goodbyes and all. the time when we will have to slog our hearts out to study like we never did before. all for our destiny (courtesy of mr low.) hope that even as we all head out to different routes for our tertiary education, we'll remember the times we've shared together as a class, enduring all the numerous problems we faced with other classes, or teachers, or even topics we struggled with. you all have gave me memories to remember in my secondary school life, and i promise i'll remember you gals. every single one of you, you'll be in my hearts. (:
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
19:55
i think im more or less comfirmed to going to AC. im not really wanting to go there cos of the environment, and yeah the posers. but after asking my mum if i should go AC or SA, she went about asking people, and told me AC. and when i explained the cons of AC, she was like i dont care. you go AC. so AC it is people. sigh. the only thing that comforts me is that im gonna have my darlings with me. (: so yeah bev and van, dont leave me. after 3mnths, i promise i'll go back to VJC if i can.
i loved yesterday night to the core. its nice talking about the past and bringing back memories. i dont want you to go. really.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Friday, October 1
16:27
damn damn damn. sometimes my goal's just like so far, yet so near. VJC is like a million miles away from me now. and i'm really praying i'll make it there for my JC. now the only thing i have on my mind is study study study. and this is so ironic, cus i cannot lift my butt from the chair to go to the studyroom and study! damn.
now i cannot make up my damn mind. stick with van/bev but go to the school i dislike, or simply just go without friends to sa. i seriously don't know where to go. i promised i'll think about it. and i really will. but for now i really cannot make up my mind. i dont fit the enviroment over there. but the only thing that is attracting me there is you both. van and bev. you all are wonderful friends. and i doubt i'll find anyone in jc who'll ever be like you both. really. but i just dont like the enviroment there. and moreover, its kinda far. whatever it is, i'll let you know of my decision sunday morning 830. promise.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
