all in this together;

Wednesday, May 31


irritate |ˈiriˌtāt| verb [ trans. ] make (someone) annoyed, impatient, or angry : his tone irritated her | [ intrans. ] his voice tend s to irritate | [as adj. ] ( irritating) highly irritating remarks. • cause inflammation or other discomfort in (a part of the body). • Biology stimulate (an organism, cell, or organ) to produce an active response. (This doesn't apply.)

I AM annoyed, cross, angry, vexed, exasperated, irked, piqued, nettled, put out, fed up, disgruntled, in a bad mood, in a temper, testy, in a huff, huffy, aggrieved; irate, infuriated, incensed. (ALL FROM THE DICTIONARY.)

You do not:
I read between the lines alright. Even if you don't mean it, I still feel the hurt and the pain. Here I am already regretting I didn't lead a hearty, cheery, active, happy, participating-in-every-single-event sorta JC life, and you have to rubitin, don't you. Well. I hope somehow or another the whole school disregards the fact that you have been active in your CCA, been an OGL, and every other friggin stupid achievement of yours. Yet I will pray for you constantly for your lack in understanding how another person feels.

Imagine this: You have an O/F grade (BAD!!) and he (that insensitive idiot) has like 1 mark away from a B grade (good!). And he goes up to you in a friggin whiny voice saying "Aiyoooooh I did damn badly. Super disappointed with myself." And then he reveals he has like what, a damn high mark compared to yourself. Can you imagine how I would feel? GOOD. Cos you can put yourself in my very comfortable glitter pumps. (i.e. understand me!) Go impart some skills to that twit. I'd appreciate it.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.


This is a super random "i-miss-the-polka-dots" entry. Credits to Clau the Lau for the amazing pictures that I thought I lost forever. Reminiscing our past memories have always been a hobby and pasttime of mine. Our hysterical breakouts of laughter and incessant chitchats along the corridors... those were what made days in St Margs fun. I bet you I'm the only nut case still suffering from withdrawal syndromes from St Margs. I wonder if next year after graduating from VJ I'd have as much to say about VJ as St Margs.

Sure, VJ's a wonderful atmosphere to be in. Soccer matches and mugging sessions in the library, with the carrot cake stall and the delightful ice milo in the canteen, with my wonderful group of friends who brighten up school days and make them even more enjoyable than what it already is (or is supposed to be). And how could one forget the notorious few people in the school where hot gossip is constantly being generated from. Oh yes, and the chicken drumstick! (: I can happily say now that I love VJC. And I really thank God for putting me there last year, even though making me leave SA was one of the hardest choices I had to make, and I was wailing like a foetus with malfunctioning tearglands when I had my orientation in VJ, I finally see why God allowed for this to happen.

Photos of the past years in St Margs, memories will stay always.

Beebsie and I on Christmas Eve 2004 (I think!) I know I can safely say down the road that this year, Christmas will be spent with her and the family (: My best friend! ★ & my shining star!

Rembering our promises of forever friends, and promises we'll keep in touch no matter where we go, whatever happened to them. Winny seems to be a name in my handphone contact list, not someone I would depend on, as opposed to the past, where we were so close and all. And her? Let's not go into that.

Michelle's party and our class Prom photo! Will 4/6 day still have that many people turning up?

After the release of our O level results, February 2005.

Mrs Low! I prolly let her down cos I'm getting shitty marks for maths now. |:

And thanks for the cakes you girls last year 31Aug2005(: (the pics a bit screwed cos I recovered it from my camera and okay, ZONG YAO DIAN is the cake!)

4/6 day's coming. I can't wait. It's the people that make St Margs so enjoyable.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Monday, May 29


I am an impulsive horrendous spendthrift asshole who makes full use of the Great Singapore Sale to its extreme. I am guilty. Zara and Esprit should thank me whole heartedly.

Da Vinci was rather scary and all, the whole Silas torturing himself was a tad too scary for me. And anyhows I still don't really understand the whole plot and all. It must be God's will cos I wasn't really paying attention to what they said so I couldn't possibly have believed anything they said. Whilst purchasing the ticket with my mum and aunts, the guy asked for MY IC. It's so irritating cos I'm turning 18 soon, yet he still asked for my IC. Like I don't look above 16.

Mug mug mug let's all mug its the best hobby in the world.

You are of paramount importance.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Sunday, May 28


Celebrated Sheeni's birthday today at Marche. Made a photoframe thingamajic for her with our pictures and had our messages around the pictures. A joint effort of Beverly Beebs, Vanessa and I. Was making a whole lot of noise at Mac. And I very much enjoy my morning breakfast of sausage mcmuffin with egg, hashbrowns and milo. It's a good thing to wake up to.

Preparing the thing.

The end result!

(Let me add that Singapore's transport system is inefficient, unsystematic, time wasting, and a whole lot of other adjectives. (I paraphrase! Mrs Ting would be proud.) Waited 27minutes for a 961, then after when Beebs decided to meet at Suntec straight and I wanted to take 196 to stop at Suntec instead of Cityhall, 961 came. This indeed is Murphy's Law.)

Service was damn funny. Pastor Prince and nong nong ago was just making me laugh hysterically, out of controlly, crazily, berserkly etc etc (I'm really making a huge effort to paraphrase.) Sermon topic was about wisdom, and how listening to anointed music and classical music will allow one to think better etc etc. Cos it stimulates your right brain (creative part) and so when you use your left brain to think it's better. Okay. At least that's what I caught.

Met up with Sheeni! Okay. I'm lazy to blog. Let me do it in point form now.
But seriously, you two are really perfect for each other even though I don't know that someone in question, but I sincerely wish you two the best in everything and I know that you will learn to allow this r/s to grow and glow in the glory of God! Whoa it's a tongue twister. Just like the name. Hilarious.

At Marche!

Queueing for our crepe/rosti/calamari/pizza!

The food at Marche! (plus Sheeni's home brought apple cheese crumble which is to die for!)

Beebs Sheeni and I.

Sheeni dearest and I!

Four shoes always. +Celeste! Match the shoes to the faces!

As you can see my camera resolution is pretty bad ):
The Birthdaygirl and I.

Van's so funny.

My Bestfriend and I (:

I had a very very very heart to heart talk with Beebsie about all our deepest darkest stuff and everything we felt about who and who. Whilst munching on lor mai kai which is at an extortion rate of $4 (no GSS on it!) and mango pomelo shit and ice kachang. Settling problems, deciding what to do with stuff. Waiting for someone to message. BOTH OF US. My best friend, I love you! THE MOST! (:(: Study soon and shop with me okays. Thanks for everything, my bestie, always.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Saturday, May 27


Let's just put it as I'm still not quite over the soccer win. Flashes of the goals still remain in my mind. For the gobsmacking goals you can view the last 5 minutes odd of the video here. (By the way, my Mac now cannot use the bold functions and the upload picture functions as easy as before, so yes, my limited HTML knowledge shall come into place.) I hate to predict what will happen when I want to photoblog. Hoho! Anyways I've just downloaded Mozilla Firefox which can run blogger scripts so I am a happy girl!


Anyways, Happy Birthday Sheeni Tay Shi Ni! Although I haven't quite seen you in the past ______ months (I lost count!) You're still someone I treasure alot. Hope you won't zong se qing you ah! May you succeed in everything you do, and lead a blessed 18th birthday! And that that guy of yours will make you happy, let you smile, and never let you cry. See you tomorrow dearest! One day with FULL ITY! I am super delighted and cannot wait!

I watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire yesterday and after watching the behind the scenes disc and the addional deleted scenes, I hereby conclude all three of the young (or not sooo young) actors are very eloquent and they speak really well. And let me add that they do have a very good sense of humour. Cannot wait for the fifth installment of the show.

And it comes at a very "appropriate" timing which is my 30day mug camp. Hurhur. 70% off certain selected pieces of clothing isn't a very good deterant to stop me from shopping. Discipline. Dilligence. Determination. That's all I need.


there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Thursday, May 25


Mark your confessions:
[x] I'm afraid of silence.
[x] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark.
[ ] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[x] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is closed
[ ] I am afraid of gay or lesbian people.
[x] I believe in true love.
[ ] I've run away from home
[ ] I listen to political music
[x] I collect comic books
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[x] I've stayed out all night.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I watch the news
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I love Disney movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[ ] I dont kill bugs
[ ] I curse.
[ ] I have an "x" in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped and fell in public.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam....
[ ] I bake well
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[x] I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[x] I want a better job
[x] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil.
[ ] I like multiple people
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I have a lot of scars.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I love chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[x] Gotten lost in the city.
[x] Thought of suicide before.
[ ] Seen a shooting star.
[ ] Had a menage a trois.
[ ] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[ ] Have kissed someone really strange....
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of a
diff. sex.
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested.
[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come
out of my nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] made out in an elevator.
[ ] Swore at Liberace.
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[ ] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[ ] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a car...
[x] been to Japan.
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] shoplifted
[ ] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them
[ ] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[ ]Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[ ] been to New York
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[x] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] Have a list of people you want to kill.
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[ ] Been to Canada.
[x] Been on a Plane.
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar or club
[x] Eaten sushi.
[ ] Been snowboarding.
[x] Continued to care for someone sooo much
even though you know you can't have them
[ ] taken a picture just for the sole purpose of
putting it on myspace/friendster..
[x] Been ice skating
[x] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes
[ ] been at a party and instead of giving out your
phone number you give them your mypsace name
and say look me up
[x] liked someone even though you knew you
shouldn't have.
[x] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[ ] Hate the world.
[x] Love someone who doesnt realize it
[x] have your cell phone permanently attached to
your hand/hip
[ ] cried over a guy/girl you didnt even go out with.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.


Even though I wasn't properly orientated, today's soccer match just made me a true blue victorian! Screaming and cheering the botaks on was pure joy. Even though it was tiring I wanted to carry on. They made being a Victorian seem so glorious and stuff. Cheering on with Caiping, Lindy, Qinghui and Weiwei was wonderful. The adrenaline rush when we had a close goal or scored, or the heart aches we went through when MJ scored (or for that matter faked injuries.) Seriously, I think we should all grant all MJ soccer boys a diploma in acting. They deserve it.

The atmosphere was to die for. I haven't experienced such exhilaration in ages. Matches that I support (esp finals!) make me go hoooooooray! Super happy man! The score was 4-2. In the first half, it was 1-0, in MJ's favour. Deep down in my heart, I said a little prayer, asking Him to give the boys whatever they deserve for training so hard. Then in the 2nd half, VJ scored the equalizer. MJ scored. 2-1 in their favour. 10 minutes left. I thought we were dead. Then the clock slowly counted down to 5 minutes. VJ scored. 2-2. I was happy. Hugged Cp, Lindy, Qinghui. Hi-fived! Then another goal. HOORAY! And another one. ALL IN 4 MINUTES.

Good job guys. WE TRULY ARE THE CHAMPIONS! Ck, next time take picture stand a bit higher lah! Haha. Anyw I watched XMen and it was good. Angel is so.. retarded. He is: handsome, rich and he flys. Yes, that's his special powers. Retarded. Well, the show was a short 1hr 45mins, could be longer though. And if the three kids sitting beside Cp in the PS Cinema 5 who watched the show at 130pm today read this, KINDLY HAVE THE COURTESY TO SHUTUP NEXT TIME. And stop oohing and aahing each time people make out in shows. It's irritating.

And ASHLEY! *hands you some paperclips* I've been taken over by Lindy Lin, prophesizer, go-to-her-if-you-need-notes, and genius. Not to mention self-appointed recipient of the prestigious Singa award. Three cheers for Lindy!

I swear a Mac's too cool. EVERYTHING is customisable. But I cannot blog in colour anymore. The codes don't work or something! Nevermind. Miss you.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Wednesday, May 24


It has been a long absence from the computer and it was a long-awaited wait for my dearest Macbook. It's so white its like pure. and I'm contemplating gmasking it. Okay I've lost my urge to blog. Will blog next time. If the holidays permit it. Grrr.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Tuesday, May 16


Open iTunes. Go to your library. Answer, no matter how embarrassing it is.

Sort by Song -
First Song: (Sittin' On) The Dock Of Bay, Otis Redding
Last Song: Hei Se Mao Yi, Jay Chou

Sort by Time -
Shortest Song: You And Me, Oliver James
Longest Song: Goodbye Sky Harbour, Jimmy Eat World

Sort by Artist -
First Artist: 183 Club [don't laugh!]
Last Artist: Wang Lee Hom

Sort by Album -
First Album: 10 Things I Hate About You OST
Last Album: Yu Jian Ai, Yang Cheng Ling

Search the Keyword - song title only - and see how many songs appear:

"Sex": 4
"Death": 3
"Love": 119 (hopeless romantic!)
"You": 262
"Me": 318
"Drug": 0
"Hate": 12

Shuffle your library and list the first five songs. No padding your playlist you hipster, you. Be honest!! or I'll kill you.

1. Hello Sunshine, Super Furry Animals
2. God is Great, Hillsong
3. Ke Ai Nu Ren, Jay Chou
4. My Hope, Hillsong
5. Tears And Rain, James Blunt

Total music: 1695 songs

NAPFA today, failed pullups. How retarded. Kept doing 3. Then stop. Then 5. Then stop. Then 5. Then stop. Till my arms killed me. So next week I have to redo all 5 items again! Hope I can do my sit and reach and standing broad jump and shuttle run still next week! Had a record all time high for my sbj. 181 cm. I never thought I could jump longer than my height.

Beverlywongsiting! Take it easy dear. I know it's gonna be stressful and taxing on you tomorrow, just relax. DO YOUR BEST. That's all that matters. I'm 10000000000% sure that God will make everything fall into place just if you do your best. He'll do the rest dear. ilubchuuu! (:(: I called you but you didn't pick up and you broke my heart but I love you so still. (:

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Sunday, May 14


HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! My mother has been the greatest pillar of strength in my family. Seriously, as the years grew by after Sec 4, I've been closer and closer to her and sometimes she's just like my best friend. We shop together. Whatever I wear she likes she buy. Makes her young eh. We exercise together and diet together. When I'm down she can sense it and cheers me up and vice versa. We share our deepest problems. She never fails to understand what I'm going through and I'm very very very grateful for that. So wishing all mothers out there (although I'm sure no mothers read my blog) a Happy Mothers Day! I'm sorry I'm still sucha pest at times (:

My mum and I in Japan!

Truth be told, I wasn't quite done with talking about my day yesterday. But mummy was rushing me off the computer at 12, even though it wasn't a school night and since I promised and when the clock struck 12 it was mother's day, so in one sense or another I was obliged very much so to get off the computer and please the queen of the house cos, well, it is mothers day!

For the record: it was 172 pictures in a span of 4-5 hours. (minus 2 hr service.. 2-3 hours) OH MAN. That's alot.

I remember yesterday there were two catch phrases! #1: AND THEN and #2: "Honk the daylights outta him!" (that was when we were jaywalking from suntec to marina square) I remember we were at the roundabout and we were like "Oh no! Oh no!" and just nice the sermon topic was about letting the peace of God guide you. VERY APT. And we were like please don't let the cars knock us down! (and we didn't if not I won't be here delivering this story to you!) GOD DOES MIRACLES!

Anyways, sitting on the steps before the junction you cross from Marina square to Esplanade was heavenly! It could be comparable to the times we sat outside 4/6 talking during one of the free periods, or our everyday incessant chatter in the canteen. It was soooooooooooo good outside there listening to the constantly disrupted story we had to listen in chronological order. Just wanna say here! BEVERLYWONGSITING & CELESTELAUSHUYI you girls are my shining stars always! VANESSAKANGPEISHI! Wish you were there yesterday! Then it'll be CELEUBEVK! A Beebs Clau D Eu F G H I J vK... (who cares about the rest!) Maybe when its Q R Sheeni T U Vk! No one bothers about Z. Grrrr.

I'm randoming here. Today I saw a bus advertisement saying "Inspiration is all it takes" and was instantly reminded of the Ad we saw yesterday and I started missing you all once again. It's only one day. I keep watching the video and I go crazy at the part when we say byebye! and Beebs flashes using her camera! HILARIOUS.

here it is!

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Saturday, May 13


I believe somethings need not be said to be felt. The presence of the two of you being there today was enough for me to forget the troubles I've been through this week, coupled with God's blessings and His presence today at church, it was just overwhelming.

Don't need to wait for the sun to shine;
Don't need to wait for the clouds to clear;
I know that my God You're so good.
I praise You, You are faithful!

Anyways I typed a long entry and then Blogger screws up on me AGAIN. So, yes I summarize. God's trying to test my patience as well as my GP summary skills. Good job. (thinks optimistic) Sermon topic today was on decision making, really apt cos this period of time many important decisions have to be made. Like career options etc etc. It boils down to a choice between practicability and passion. So anyways, will pray about it and hopefully God gives me an answer soon!

Tuition --> Service --> Dinner --> Shopping for Mum's day pressie --> Esplanade --> Citylink --> Home.

I won't do a comprehensive summary cos I'm really tired now, so I'll let the pictures work it's magic. Picture's a thousand words. So I have like a thousand pictures. Go do the maths.

Before service (I think, either that or its during)

Dinner time with the fabulous fried rice and chicken cutlet which poked my ulcer incessantly and caused it to bleed. So meal of the day: bloody chicken cutlet with fries and very very good ketchup which I love! (but hurt my ulcer.. grrrrr.)

Insaneness along the streets.(: Btw that 'thing' I was holding was a STOP sign. But yes, reflection of the bloody light.


The first people I've went to the esplanade with at night! I think we irritated the hell outta alota couples.

The extremely pretty nightsky and when we were just sitting down chatting/yakking away!
(see my papillos?!)

More insane pictures of us. & BEEBSIE AND ME! Much love girl.

Close up of my papillos! Guess which (fat) legs mine are!

Shadows in the moonlight!

Like these pictures many many!

Uhrm, Beebs taking a picture of a camera on self-timer mode taking us.

Clau and her butt with Beebs and I!

Okay, switch roles.

Sexy Seleste.


BABY FATS. Okay I was high then.

Inspiration is all it takes!

Happy birthday, you colour my life in the most number of ways possible (:

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

my shutterfly

my multiply


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