Monday, July 31
16:21I know you know my password and I still read your blog at times and I can't help it if you're angry with me stating the plain truth about childish boys your age. It's my blog and I have a right, so go on, block me.
CK and ______ sitting on a tree,
K-I-S-S-I-N-G.
maybe if you tried hard enough, and invested more time in me, you'd be able to find out that part of me isnt with you anymore. and i dont know why. maybe its you.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Sunday, July 30
20:38Finally, the day with my loves came. Service was good, I liked the message, of how God would multiply when you divide and add when you subtract, and that His blessings are bountiful! How very apt for preparing of our prelims. In Economics, it's about satisfying unlimited wants with limited resources, but in God's name, its unlimited wants with DAMN UNLIMITED RESOURCES CAN! However I missed Celeste today >:( its been 15098124819042142 million milleniums since I saw that girl and I still owe her her birthday present.
On a separate note, my brother bought me orange converse shoes that are a tad too big for me, and I look like a clown in them. My feet are like giant flip flops. And I feel like a big joke in them. But anyways, since I paid 50 bucks for them I might as well wear them anyways.
I'm craving for hotcakes (still!) and beef chilly cheese fries from Carls'. >:(
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Saturday, July 29
09:42
STOLEN FROM CAIPING.
She's really the wikipedia fan. I tried so hard to get pictures of HSM, but after trying so many times I wouldn't. Anyways, she now controls the most important CD I want now -- HSM "behind the scenes", sing-a-long version sountracks, and the entire HSM movie burnt. Monday will come soon.
The playlist is now renamed ♥♥♥ to show my unending love for HSM. And I'm bobbing to it every bus ride home. I love bus rides home now! With phone calls to brighten up my day (and occasional messages from the loverbeebs!) I like bus rides.
College day later on. Definition of college day: A day where students who are not talented enough to get prizes on stage sit in the lecture hall with the blasting aircon and chat their day away. I still remember last year we played the "concentration" game in the hall.
It's the start of something new,
It feels so right that I'm here with you.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Thursday, July 27
18:58
I have embarked on my mission to convert people into High School Musical freaks. So far Cp, Shu and Chris are. Chris is just so anti-dreamyguy. So anyways, the OST is really good. Scouted Gramaphone in Parkway today for the DVD/OST and guess what, it's sold out.
So I've learnt a new "skill" (dont laugh Caiping!) in Photoshop and it's quite cool (: Trying out new effects and stuff. Today, time was well spent with Cp, collecting the Ronaldo soccerball, lunching, studying at the library after acting like some nomads without homes cos the library didnt have space. And when we wanted to go Starbucks to study, it closed down. What tough luck. I hope we have more studying sessions that are fulfilling and productive.
Coffee was super sweet. And we came up with a new theory. Guys who are dark and handsome with white teeth are good-looking like the random dude who says "Good morning!" and "Hello!" every morning. I passed by Suntec today, there were construction workers. They didn't seem handsome.
On a very very separate and random note; I am rather semi-pissed with my cousin. He is going on and on about how his classmates knows that he "likes" me. (Note: like is in inverted commas! More on that later.) And he's going on and on about how his friends are teasing him about being ugly. When he's not even ugly.
And he says his friends have girlfriends. What sort of era is this? Secondary 1. In RI. And with a girlfriend!? I bet in 6 months tops they will break up. And he says his classmates are handsome and cool. Someone tell me what's the definition of handsome and cool-- someone with a girlfriend? Goodness. The world is coming to an end soon.
His friends are teasing him about me. Wow, I never knew I could be a hot topic in RI. And they're doing so cos he likes his cousin. Which is wrong yes I know. In fact I don't know who to side -- him or his classmates. Firstly, I sincerely with all my heart doubt that he even "likes" me. Secondary 1: is a stage where guys testosterone levels are raging sky high into the sky and they just "like" someone for the sake of "liking" someone.
(When I asked why he likes me, he said this: "Cos you're the only girl I know.")
And if they don't "like" a girl they are ostracized. And they'll get teased and all. I never remembered life in St. Margs' being like this. And I told him to tell the teacher. And he said if he did he'd be called a "telltale". Sigh,
And I asked him, "Since looks matter so much, if I dated a guy not that good looking would you discriminate him and not talk to him?" To which he replied: No. Point proven. Girls won't like you or talk to you just for how you look. And he rebutted me, saying: Of course you can say this, you are pretty what. Sigh, I don't know what to say to him.
If I were pretty, guys would horde over me. And possibly fight for me (judging from the way he talks about his classmates.) But no one does that. And the fact that guys would horde over me if I were pretty would not be a generalization, because I have concluded that guys (well, most of them) go for looks and not for the heart. And I have cases to judge. Guys hop from target to target. If cannot get Girl #1, go for Girl #2, and so on, and so forth. Until they get a girl.
Times have seriously changed.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Wednesday, July 26
21:48
We're all in this together
Once we know that we are,
We're all stars and we'll see that;
We're all in this together
And it shows, when we stand,
Hand in hand,
Make our dreams come true.
We can do it girl, we can. With God, and family, and friends, WE can.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Tuesday, July 25
22:07The past few days have been spent High School Musical-ing, and bop pop-ing to the wonderous splendid songs and just jamming and jiving to the wonderful music. I never did regret watching HSM on Disney! To think I subscribed to the 'Kids' group just because of watching HSM. And I have been listening to the soundtract non-stop on my pod, so much that the songs have appeared on my 'JIVE!' playlist. (and only songs which have been played more than 20 times appear there)
And on a side note, I downloaded the soundtrack before I watched the movie. And I liked it even before I watched it.
Ryan and Sharpay singing "What I've Been Looking For" during the auditions!(if you want the song, ask, I'd gladly send!)
Didn't go to school today, due to my obstinate character. My mum told me not to eat the tom yum stingray my brother brought back before he left for HK on a shopping trip on Sunday, yet I did. So the result? Diarrhea on Monday. And my tummy didn't feel quite well this morning so I decided to sleep in too. Kinda missed school if you ask me.
You know the world can see us;
In a way that's different from who we are
♥: Sorry for being emoemo all last week and sorta venting my stressful frustrations at you. And yet you still beared with me and all. Sorry for the silly mistakes I've made. After all this you still stay by me and comfort me, telling me you understand. And I don't know whether to laugh or cry. Laugh because I'm really amazed at your tolerance level and all, cry because I'm so guilty about just throwing all my emo thoughts at you. And still asking for a week of ceasing communication knowing I won't last even a day. Glad things are fine now and I hope you'll continue being my happypill(:
On a separate note: it's the seventh month. Apparently this time round there is either going to be 2, or its going to be a longer seventh month. Either way, I don't get why I should be afraid/must go hope early at all. My dad told my brother to return back to his hotel in HK early cos today is the 1st day and all. But I don't see why you must take precautions. I'm not scared. I know God will protect me. No matter what. And yet my dad tells me to pray for protection. Is it just me? I know spirits and all exist but I'm just not afraid of them.
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me."I ran chanting that verse in my head for my 2.4km. Thank You God for staying by me all along.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Saturday, July 22
18:36It's hard to believe
That I couldn't see
You were always there beside me
Thought I was alone
With no one to hold
But you were always right beside me
This feelings like no other
I want you to know
I've never had someone that knows me like you do, the way you do
I've never had somone as good for me as you
No one like you so lonely before i finally found
What I've been looking for
So good to be seen
So good to be heard
Don't have to say a word
For so long I was lost
So good to be found
I'm loving having you around
I'm SO tempted to just cancel maths tuition tomorrow so I can plonk myself in front of the television set and watch High School Musical singalong and singalong. The funny thing is I haven't even watched the show before, yet I went ahead and got the songs. And I'm in love with the songs already.
Its 51 days to Prelims, and 102 days to A levels. Reality check.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Friday, July 21
19:17Sometimes I really envy Celeste. I need a condusive place to study too. ): Celeste can I mug in NJ? Studying in VJ makes me really stressed ): Cos everyone else is mugging. Sometimes I feel like I'm totally in a different league as compared to the rest of the Victorians. They are so perfect, in the sense they can juggle studies, CCAs, friendships, boyfriends and stuff, CIP.. the list goes on and on. Victorian is just another word for superb-time-management, apparently. And I have none. It pisses me off that after 1.5 years I still havent got the skill of doing so. I don't get it. How come others can but I cannot. Maybe Mr Chua was right, maybe I don't want my As that badly. Up till now I haven't got this passion to do well. Do I really want it hard enough? Maybe I always think I have this fantastic safety net, that God will work everything out for me. But I always forget one thing -- God, although always there for me, will only be able to truly help me if I help myself. I won't get results if I don't work. God will be there for me emotionally and all, but ultimately, even though I trust Him alot, I need to work.
I will go by the bonus thing Cp taught me. Work for 3 hrs, reward myself with something. Everyone has to follow this scheme. If I am seen online for more than 1/2 hr please kick me off and tell me I am stupid and thus need to work harder, even though I know it's not quite true (about the stupid part!) I know I am clever(: Nownow, no more emo girl.
I want to turn 18 so badly. Just one more month and I could watch Thank You for Smoking today. Guess it was divine intervention that I couldnt rekindle this love I have for Adam Brody. ): Sad case. We tried anyw but to no avail. So anyw, Chris Cp and Lindy went to play board games again. Tried Halligalli, Blokus and this train game. Had fun, but somehow something in the back of my mind kept telling me I should be studying. Oh bummer.
God bless my brother's broken toe, and bless my friends, bless the world. Bless me, bless you.
Shu and I taken by my secondary camera in my phone! Yet still quite clear(:
BLOKUS! I am red. But still lose in the end.
The train game. Yet again, I'm pink. (:
Chris Mr Petty asshole who slammed his hand on mine when he claimed he hit the bell first. Oh wow Chris!
Blokus again, Cp and my favourite tessalation game.
And then, today I saw her. And she was still with her boyfriend. The same one she had in secondary 3. Still the same guy. Then I thought to myself, thank goodness she's still with this same guy. Even though they are doing wrong things (still, I think.) But at least the guy loves her and cherishes her still, and doesnt just leave her alone after doing wtv he wants to her. I hope for the best for them.
And just cos today is a random friday:
write something about 5 different people
you cannot say who they are
if someone ask which is about them, you cannot tell
it might be you, and it might not
in no particular order, tag people to do this
I STOLE THIS FROM ALLY!
1) Someone with two peanuts on her face (: okay darn I just gave it away. Always never fails to send me random silly messages and brightens up my day even though I'm feeling down. Always there for me when I need help, always giving me good spiritual advices and always always ALWAYS makes me SMILE! Her hair has the tagline "Is my hair messy?" and she likes to grumble and mumble when we mess her hair up (: I love you anyhow.
2) Song stealer. Go figure. Most prob the person would know who she is already by now. I'm her jukebox and very soon her ipod will become complete clone of mine. Someone who is very strongly against mog. And who is into jocks (kidding, dear!) Who ran out of trains. And who is always very cold. I provide heat for her. I bring bio TYS pt2, she brings pt1. Gives me timely much-needed advices and always wears a yellow rubberband. Who bullseye every soccer match. Who refuses to believe Zidane is balding. (now she does.)
3) MOHMOH! My muggingmate who has since pangsehed me for certain libraries. Someone who sacrificed 60 minutes of her talktime for me. I work for her under the agency "Free Room Cleaning Service". She's owed drumlets.(: Whom I can laugh about podcasts with and laugh retardedly like never before without being afraid of being judged. J to the O to the H to the nehneh to the Y is spelt JOHNNY! See what I mean. I can bu de bu ai with her and send her downstairs everytime. Whom is bio pro and makes me rmb stuff well. Like: strawberry, kiwi, asparagus, pineapple, grape, banana, rose. I have seen the ugliest side of her -- FACIAL TIME! (: Whom is the person I can share famous amos cookies with.
4) Always admired her faith in God. And her determination and discipline to strive hard and do well. Has an irritating brother that hates me. But the feeling's kinda mutual I guess. Someone my mother likes alot. Someone who can twirl on her toes without feeling pain, and whom multishots the fastest. Who is the skinniest in our group and the most siao one. With the fattest face (sorry!) and the punkiest fringe. Who I believe can do well if she wants to with hard work and determination and God's grace.
5) There for me when I need you to. Although I feel like I'm placed of 2nd importance behind your work at times, the feeling's disappearing slowly. Who drops random calls and smses to me. And doesn't care if his mummy is behind him (: who makes drumlets that are SUPPOSEDLY good even though he hasn't tried. Who motivates me to do my work not knowing JC work is hard. Whom I will trash at monopoly in time to come. Who eats strawberries the same way as I do -- with sugar. I hope you pass your QET. Helps me keep track of period dates!
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Thursday, July 20
20:31
Photoshopped today during my free time. I'm going to watch Thank You For Smoking tomorrow and rekindle my old flame with Adam Brody. (:(:(: I cannot wait for the O.C Season4 to come out! (: Anyw, something funny Shu told me today (its supposed to be a joke!)
"What did Black Eyed Peas say to the Char Kuay Teow man?"
"My humps my humps my humps my humps!" (mai ham mai ham mai ham mai ham!)
Haha! Isn't it funny.
It's a damn cold night, trying to figure out who's right, won't you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I don't know who you are but I'm with you.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Wednesday, July 19
20:00Something deep inside of me hopes for my computer to seriously just screw up on me. Somehow or another I think it has this telepathy with my heart, and it automatically shuts down everytime I have a whole pile of work to do, and yet I'm sitting here and slacking. Oh man. Just shut down and never boot up again, then I will study without distractions.
Faith; thats all I need.
Discipline; that You'll grant me.
Love; that's what You're filling me with.
Trust, something I have in You.
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man I adored
You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn
So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I dont care, I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much
Theres just so many things that I cant touch, Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn. torn.
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings right, Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and Im ashamed bound and broken on the floor
Youre a little late, Im already torn
I like this song alot. And S'pore Idol tonight sucked. I have an ulcer. I hate studying. I love Ity.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Monday, July 17
17:02
I'm suffering from OC withdrawal syndromes. More like Adam Brody withdrawal syndromes. And I don't want Cooper to die, it just won't be the same anymore.
Somehow or another, I just cannot sit down and start mugging for my As. It has been in me that 'A's is still "very far away", even though its just 4 months. 4 months is going to come and go very quickly. It's just like another "first three months" at SA or smthng like that. It's going to come and go very quickly. I am going to regret if I don't study hard now. And it's not like I'm doing very well. Everyone else is doing well, but me. Everyone else is studying, even though they already are doing well, except me. Everyone knows what to fill in for their top 3 achievements, but me.
I don't like the feeling at all. Not one bit. Don't like being viewed differently. Don't like it at all. Don't like being seen as someone whom I'm not. Maybe I'm _____, yes, maybe I am, but still there's no need to treat me that way, even though I don't blame you. Maybe I need to stop. I think I do. I'm sorry anyhow.
I want to plonk myself on an idyllic beach watching the sunrise and sunset, and whilst I'm waiting for the sun to rise or to set, I want to sit down in my fluffy chair drinking Banana Frapucinno from Starbucks, even though they aren't selling it anymore. I want to let my mind go from all this fast-paced things around me, disregard the fact that exams are here. I want so many things.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Thursday, July 13
17:31I'm suffering the undeniable symptoms of PMS: physical symptoms and emotional symptoms alike. The changes in mood, irritability, stress, anxiety, and my lack of control in going to the kitchen to savage for food. And the physical symptoms? Bloating and weight gain due to water retention, cramps and fatigue. How about craving for sweet food such as doughnuts! My sugar coated doughnuts from Miss Grumpy Aunty in school. Hoohum. I'm still craving them even though I ate 2 today.
Okay I copied that off Hoh Yin Kiong.
So anyw, I just want to blog about how good God is to me! I feel so terribly blessed and all and feel like a happy jellybean! (see I told you, mood swings.)
- I feel so blessed God gave me 3 wonderful friends who never fail to be by my side when I need them (you know who you jellytots are!)
- I thank God that He put me in a school I didn't really want to go to and yet He let me survive and not only survive but gave me a wonderful group of friends that I can relate to and who are willing to help me whenever I need help and who give me a bunchful of laughs.
- I thank God because He finally allowed Zidane to shed light on the head butt incident, and that Zidane is such a gentleman and told the kids not to follow him. Awwww.
- Praise God bcos I passed my inclined and up till this moment I still cannot believe I passed and I know He will bless me everyday forever!
- Blessed; cos God gave me credit for what I've been working for this hols, and gave it to me the way I deserved it -- DISMAL. And He taught me a lesson -- never study last minute whilst listening to Animal-moh-moh! (kidding!) He taught me I should be consistent in my studies. Bye to E O O. Next target: C C C.
- I thank God He led you to me and me to you in such an unconventional way. I don't know what He has in store for me but I know no matter what happens you'd make a wonderful friend. I don't know about anything now but I what I do know is everything happens for a reason and God sent you to me to make me smile everyday(:
- And the greatest food on earth -- SUBWAY. I'm craving it now. Oh man.
I know someone who can so relate to this.
Ditto that.
Got these from here. They're really quite good. Took out some random cute and sweet ones.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Tuesday, July 11
20:33
Heys just want to let you know the world's not over if you don't do well. The world is not over even if you fail your academics, grow pimples on your whole face, and lose a leg. There will be a will when there's a way. There's nothing I can do, (like you said about dependency and all) except I will be there for you. I know it may seem hard to believe but I really do know how you feel. Be happy and smile cos there are many people who care for you. For one, I care! And your family cares. So stay happy always and positive. And work hard and you'll do well I'm sure(:
Ashleeey! Be happy cos I know you'll always be my smiling bean with ultra cool green and red hair alrights. And there will always be Semester2. In which I know you'll study hard, learn from mistakes and do well. And I know Australia will welcome you with open arms into Medicine and give you red carpet treatment. (: So be my smiling shining star Ashley and smile your way through the examinations.
E O O finally. Bye VP. I'm sorry I cannot date you anymore. And double whammy! I passed my pullups. God is so good to me.
"But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not grow faint." Thanks Beebs, this will be my source of strength forever.
Celeste, I think we're telephathic too. How not too! We know each other since 13. Oh guess what. Caiping called me today. Missed call. And she talked to my voicemail. HAHA!
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Friday, July 7
23:58
The Veronicas are so hot and their songs are so cool. Seriously they are so catchy and so meaningful and heck it, they sang 4Ever! Which is da mOsT kkUuuteEe sOng wOoorrxXx!
You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
I could get used to this
Yesterday Celeste and I had a conversation on why aH lIaNxx tyPe lIdat. Because the shift button, which is the button they press to alternate caps, is so close to x and z, so they accidentally press the buttons! Cute right. Oh crap. sOwwWWwie its kAwAiss~~ neHhxx. Goodness I am appalled at myself.
More random convos:
You think I look the best
When my hair is a mess
I can't believe you exist
I could get used to this
Anyw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TURKUA/SUBJECTIVEGIRL! Beebs and I met at 230 after the stupid taxi drove me from VJ to Orchard for a whopping $11.80. Talk about hike in taxi prices. Soooooooo expensive lor! So anyw, we bummed around, ate KFC, saw this super cute japanese+chinese toddler who has damn hot hair. Super super cute. kAwAiiss wOorr! Then we ate cheesefries and gave Celeste this 2 (unfinished) drumsticks and mashed potato in a Superman big tumbler shit. Okay. Bad description. Uhrm, BUDDYMEAL!
We got her a brownie and stuck a candle inside and we sorta conned Celeste to meet "someone" (she didn't know who) outside Taka fountain. (the outside one not the inside one! taha!) Then we tried lighting the candle but the wind obviously had to blow so strongly at that particular moment so yes, she blew out no flame. Then we hid behind Old Chang Kee cos we were scared Cel saw us, BUT SHE ALREADY SAW US. AGIJKGEHJKEGHAIUFHAJ. Okay, so it was an expected surprise. But what was so funny was that when we were loitering around, Celeste already called Beebs and Beebs was like "Eh soooo sorry we couldnt make it today, cos we all very busy okayyy.." and the next moment there we were!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4XsA2Lk0QU
go to this very very stupid video!
Because I know you're too good to be true
I must have done something good to meet you
So we did a stupid video(link above!) and took pictures! (which I am waiting for beebs to send me!) So anyw, Celeste and Beebs now have the "privilege" of having 6 drumlets from Yizhe. And he hasn't even tried cooking them. Apparently good things are worth waiting for huh. Just like the great Singapore sale! So yes, Happy Birthday Celeste, courtesy from Yizhe the drumlet king. Tsktsktsk! Puuurrrt: Sound made when you stick out tongue. Funny ah. Anyw, I appreciate it that you are spending more time with me(: Calls and everything.
'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this
So anyways, CELESTE LAU SHU YI (i didnt hit the U instead of the I again!) I hope you had an awesome
I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this
ASH TOMORROW WHEN U GO BACK I WILL MISS YOU ALOT! YOU COME BACK IN DECEMBER TO PARTAY WITH ME AND GO CRAZY AND TAKE MORE SPAS NEOPRINTS OKAY! <3
You love the songs I write
You like the movies I like
There must be some kind of twist
But I could get used to this
http://www.theveronicas.com/
I cannot stand it. Even the website is so fetch! Now now miss cp, where did we hear that.
You kiss me listen to me when I'm depressed
It doesn't seem to make you like me less
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Wednesday, July 5
14:00Not going to act all happy and cheery and crap here. In school yes I'm sort of not allowed to cry in the sense that this same exact scene has been replayed again and again since God knows when. Literally, God knows when! I especially hate it when people ask me if I studied. I hate it that whatever I do, I never achieve my results. Maybe this is only applicable to my academics. But seriously, I'm truly sick of waiting for success. Success doesn't befall on everyone, it only is granted to those who truly deserve it. So what now. Hardworkingness doesnt equate to success huh.
I told her today that the worse I get now the harder I will be motivated to study harder and the come prelims, assuming I do well like every other smartass in VJC, the improvement shown in my grades would be the highest. I don't want to wait till Prelims. If I screw Prelims up, then what? My mummy told me that even if I'm not cut out for academics, there are other things I can do. Sorry to say but what can I do. Work at Macs? Oh wait. Now there's Carls Junior. Hopefully the pay there is more. I hope they employ me soon, and take me out of this misery of studying. I hope I get a job as easy as how CK got a job... by sheer luck.
I don't like it when that maths teacher of mine comes up to me and tells me, maybe if you do your tutorials, under time constraint, practise maths more, put in effort, you'll do better. Now's not too late. I'm sorry to tell him that I have done every single one of the above. EVERY SINGLE ONE. What urks me the most is he is talking to me as if I am just sitting in bed all day watching chick flicks whilst waiting for soccer matches. I DO WORK. You just don't see it. I even asked him integration questions online. And he told me I was hardworking. Oh, so I think the hardworkingness was wiped off my slate by some wonder detergent, like magiclean or something like that?!
And that look of disappointment from her? Asking if I studied. I so do not need that. When she asked if I studied? I didn't know what to say. If I said yes, I must be the stupidest girl in VJC. Wait, I challenge that. The stupidest girl on Earth. If I said no, I would be lying and giving a super heck care attitude. I did study. Towards the end of June hols, I especially studied. I really really am sick of studying. Especially studying without any results.
My friends out there claim they are sick of studying. I don't blame them. But when you don't get awarded with any merit for studying, I dare say I am sicker of studying than them. Then again, that doesn't win you any prize does it. It doesnt give you an additional 2 brownie points or like 10 marks for the upcoming Prelims right.
I always thank God even for my bad results. Insane. Sometimes I feel its insane. God I know you are trying to teach me a lesson here. To start studying harder than ever, because come the release of my results day, You will show me that whatever hurts and pains I have been facing, they are all from You, and that You will show the way, even when there seems to be no way. I thank God that by getting bad results, you are more aware of your surroundings -- your friends, your family everything. I am thankful for ITY and Caiping especially for being there when I needed them.
The most heartwarming thing my mum said to me: Don't worry darling, I have faith in you. How can you doubt yourself? I love you mummy. Even though I sorta flared up at her for repeatedly bringing up the topic, I really am grateful of such a supportive mother.
It's going to be 4 long months of mugging with Celeste and having a closer relationship with God and my family and friends.
Negonisbeeb
Muggingmate!
(: VK!VK!VK!
You know who you are.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Monday, July 3
18:33
MEHWOOHWOOHIWANTBANANA!
Board games are too fun. Brownies with Vanilla icecream are too good. Zirui's pad thai is better than my tom yum soup. And my seafood salad that I combined with my tom yum soup. Shitty cravings for cheese fries. Pictionary (bagette, THE LOFT! and sunbathing!), that stupid game we never even played properly, tessalation inspired game where Zirui just comes into my territory and he STILL thinks he's the reigning champ, that game Halli Galli where I still won twice in a roll. Damn! I'm good.
Yeah I got you
Oh to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
Yeah when I got you to make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together
The song from "Just my Luck" soundtrack's too good. :D
School tomorrow. What a bore. Econs case studies? Haven't done. Tutorial 15.1? Haven't done. Joy. Caiping is acting like she's cold shiny hard plastic.
I never doubted you at all
The stars collide, will you stand by and watch them fall?
So hold me 'til the sky is clear
And whisper words of love right into my ear
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Sunday, July 2
21:40SHOPPING TIME! +church with the loveliest girls on earth!
"I think my dad is going to like this!" x6 *takes out shoebag*: I will remember Vanessa for this my whole life. Kenny Rogers without muffins and lotsa cheese marcaroni, sweetcorn, coselaw (sp?!) and mashed potato with ribs &chicken. And to think this morning I told myself: I'm going on a vege and fruits and water detox diet today. Hooray. 1000 points for my determination huh.
AND BRAZIL LOST. So did England but anyw England couldn't possibly do very very well without Owen. And Cristiano is such a KPO. Rooney push his teamate down he still go kpo and then end up kena pushed by violent and aggressive Rooney. Kudos to him man. Anyways, now I'm rooting for Germany! Klose!
My legs hurt from shopping. Come tuesday, it's full swing ahead.
Much love. I'm always in your world.
Waiting for VK to get her gorgeous shoebag!
I really want a beanbag from here and the clocks.
I LOVE MUGGINGMATE! My turkua girl and animal mohmoh!
okay okay spastic.
And we were talking about how next time in the future when we were all happily attached, that all our boyfriends could be best friends just like we are best friends. So we wouldnt zong se qin you and be able to handle both friends and boyfriends at the same time without them complaining. Perfect.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
Saturday, July 1
23:56Pasta with squishy squid, crabmeat, cheap hotdogs, onions, tomato chunks and mushrooms is what Celeste and I do the best. And plus our $5 apple juice from cold storage, we make the best chefs in the world. Even though we take very long to cook with the "stick on the wall" pasta, and the exciting knife (uhrm, I still dno why its so exciting!). And the interesting similar to my bro conversations with 250kgfatcow. On how saying you are fat in the house will receive similar responses. Tsk. Brothers.
And then came Vivian (DAMN IT WE DIDNT TAKE PICTURES) with her eyeliner-smudged contact lenses, and our queueing for selling out fast "Just My Luck" tickets, and the sakae sushi talk about insensible people who club and are stick thin with them typing like this: effing steam luhs! :]:]:] and eating sushi and me wanting to pee badly! And more catching up. And finding that she feels the same about me on some matters. And seeing her after 6 mths is really da best lah! Or should I say th best luhs!! :]:]:] I think if she sees this she will slap me in my face. With the "it's not chocolate but it tastes like chocolate" guy, and our shopping at heeran with the micro tube that fits her boobs but not her waist, and that chinesey top. And the movie. Where "whalao so suay" and "damn unlucky!" and "omg the drummer is so cute" and "he has nice eyes" and "omg so hot so hot!" dominated the entire movie. I love you Vivian!
Soccer mania tonight, till 5. I hope I wake up in time for church. And on Monday, we're going to whip up our lunch with Caiping. I hope we don't give the same effect as salmon cajun from Fish&Co.
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.
