all in this together;

Thursday, August 31


A sneakpeek of "the-bra-files"
fyi: all the bras were new.

To all those who messaged: (cont from yesterday) Tx, ASHLEY!!, Serene, Oky, Sulin, Giang, Gaoli, Mello, Nanthini, Debbie, Caiping, Bevlim, Kianhua, Celeste, VK, Yaomin, Emmgay, Junjie, and Nigel.


Will update about the surprise tonight(: I love you girls! It's my first surprise and I cried. More on that! No more emo birthdays, this one was the BEST!



It wasn't really happy for me before they came, all the pictures from now on are only happy because of THEM! I thought it would be an ultra lonely birthday with no one to accompany me except books! Sad case huh! But then I had a nap, and Celeste sent me a message saying this: If I got moneh i will buy you bakerzin cake and balloons and flowers and then come to your door and sing.. Hai but then now dun even have time to come and sing to you.. Hai gotta study la.. :( i mees you.. Anyways after hearing that I was like already so touched she even had that idea! I already saved that message in my folders!

Then I was lazing around in bed, received Vk and Emmgay's message, then I was using the computer halfway, when I heard the doorbell. And my maid said that it was brother and told me to hurry up. And I ran to the door. And I saw them.
OMG THANKS YOU GUYS. I was like totally stunned you all were there cos I thought that they would continue studying and Beebs and Sheeni (omg I havent seen her in 139018509183531 years!) would be too busy playing after their prelims.. but anyhow, THEY CAME! :]:] hand in hand with 5 co
lourful balloons, one damn nice cake and 4 pink flowers! 4 GEBERRAS! (and thanks a zillion for the 18 geberras from you!)

So anyhow yes lah yes lah I GOT CRY LAH OKAYYY. Who wouldn't it was such a sweeeeet gesture from all of them especially when I thought even Sheeni dont care me! Then somemore I was typing a rather emo entry before they came. I feel so bad now. I felt so unwanted but now I feel soooooooo loved!

hahahahaha oh my goodness can you see all those pictures we took. For a period of time we just sat in my room with my iSight and then we took pictures again and again for 1 whole hour! I really didn't know we could do that. From bras, to shoes, to nostrils...

...that was Beebs' nostrils and Celeste :]:] and we talked about really random things like this:
And many many many others I forgot. And we made soundtracks that I am trying very hard to upload to. SHIT THIS IS THE MOST AWESOME BIRTHDAY EVER! (:

And of course.. I EDIT.



there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.


After 10953109853105 trillion gazillion years, my computer is back. Got it back this afternoon. And when I got the computer back I found out the modem was a bit cocked up. So anyways, at 12:00mn sharp, the internet got on again. Anyways, it's my birthday today. And it feels so strange this year. For the first time, there is completely no birthday magic. I feel so lost and empty.

I expected so many others to message me but I guess this birthday's not significant to them. Books over Eunice. That's what I kept saying to myself. It's supposed to be that way, ain't it? Even my brother doesn't love me enough to postpone his work for a birthday dinner.

This birthday is an awfully gloomy one. I can't even smile when I cut my chocolate banana cake. I don't know why. I find it so hard to smile this year. Why is this so. I expect so much more from my friends cos thats all I have in this life, other than my parents, and God. Sigh Eunice cheerup dont be an emo girl. You have to get emotionally attached to your books not people. Books not people. Books not people. it's not a time to wallow over self-pity about how pathetic you are.

To all those who messaged: (in order) Vannylee, Zirui, Vivian, CK, Shu and Beebsie, thanks alot for remembering and making the effort to message me(: It really makes me smile. Maybe I am just an over-dependant girl who needs extra love on her birthday. Extra love from her parents, from her friends, from everyone.

Anyw, pictures.

The minimogla.

I'll be happier after Gong. The thing is, I wonder why only you can make me smile. ): the ball's in your court now.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Sunday, August 13


I've been a bad spendthrift today. Bought a pair of sneakers from Topshop and 2 badges, as well as her bday present. And long john silvers with Celeste and shopping for randomness stuff. Beeping each time I walked into a shop. Damn m)phosis. I still want those top shop pumps I saw which cost a hefty $66 dollars. And a bag. Damn, study Eunice, study.

If I had a birthday party (thanks to Beebs' suggestion) would anyone go? Or would they all pangseh me. I wonder, I wonder. Am I loved by anyone other than Ity? ):

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.


Settler's was too full. Settled for some Vietnam noodles shit. Goodness Giang turned skinny all of a sudden, but other than his weight he's still the same. The same farty dirty minded loud mouthed guy we all know. Haven't seen Vi for ages, Chelsea and Huihui too. They're all the same still, thankfully. Yushu hasn't changed. John hasn't. Thank God for SAJC.

Strawberrycheesecake icecream at Haagen Dasz. Simply wonderful. The guy at the counter was so funny. Describing the proportion of the number of people ording Cookies and Cream to the number of people ordering Midnight Cookies and Cream as 50% and 50%. Hypothesis testing man. And he dropped one scoop of strawberrycheesecake on the counter. How blur! Anyw, he gave me a bigger scoop (or so I think.)

Viv, Chelsea and I.


Chelsea trying to get a shot with Mr Jay Chou lookalike Christian.
And the slim Giang. (kindly ignore the middle finger, it was unintentional)

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Saturday, August 12


Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else

I have been hooked onto my darling OC for the past night. I watched finish 2 discs since evening time yesterday. Seth Cohen is really such a witty hunk :D

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Friday, August 11


Was looking at SAJC Rapture pictures on sajc's official site, and my itchy fingers clicked on 2005 Orientation photos. And memories flood back.

I remember.

The mengzhe lookalike. (the one on the left)

My OG20! (the OG I was never close to)

My favourite mass dance! And I still dno VJ's.


Wo heng xiang nian SA. ): And it's been nearly 2 years.
The Saints spirit stays on always.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.


Almost heading for a fall.

My morning today was spent in front of the idiotbox, swooning over a giant ape. I watched Kingkong, a three and a half hour show when I'm supposed to be preparing for the giant Prelims. What a right sense of mind.

Kingkong is too sweet. I want a guy like Kingkong ): He was really hilarious and funny and his big hands just make him so much cuter. When he laughs, goodness the whole house literally vibrates (kudos to Daddy's fabulouso sound system). I bet the neighbours wondered what happened. And in the last few scenes when he was "ice skating", goodness he is just so clumsy and that makes him so attractive. Why do I like a monkey.

On a separate note, Adrian Brody was rather sweet. Ying xiong jiu mei. I remember Beebs liking Kingkong when she watched the show. I'm just like her! Awww shit I miss Beebs and the gang alot ):

Bummer, back to books.

I hate to admit it, but I'm enchanted by you.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Wednesday, August 9


I can't wait for my birthday this year. That was my 16th.
(okay I look super spastic.)
And Beebs this is a command to send me those old pics of us now!

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.


The state of my Mac now. See the three PDF files on my desktop? Yes more homework for our long "holiday". And I totally love my wallpaper. Seriously, Poisson is driving me insane (YES BEEBS ITS ULTIMATELY POISON!!!!) and crazy and I am sick of studying stats. I know its the most useful part of maths but.. Oh nevermind no one wants to hear me whine.

Click here for this Wikipedia article on Singlish. It's really damn chim. My main purpose for reading it was actually to relieve stress but it didn't work out.

The parade is starting in 14 minutes. Happy Birthday Singapore. Thank you so so so much for providing such a stressful education system. And thanks to your birthday, we all get a week off to study more. Joy. For providing us with alot of patriotic songs such as "there was a time when people said that Singapore won't make it.. but we did!" and such. (I'm surprised I actually remember that much lyrics)

Feels so right to be here with you.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Tuesday, August 8


Just one picture for the day, studying at the airport with food gang.

Amidst arm wrestles, hashbrown, HOTCAKES!!!, complex nos and money and prices notes.

Today is SO my day, I turned on my DISNEY channel to watch That's So Raven and after the end of the show, my beloved High School Musical got played. I AM SO HAPPY. It's high-school-musical craze yet again.

1. Your room is rather messy but I hope its still clean now!
2. Not blog for a week (although I know its possible dont do it cos I'll miss your entries!)
3. Yellow. SOLARIS!
4. I like your determination to do stuff.
5. Your pencil case you knitted yourself!
6. TURTLE. You love it more than me I bet!
7. How to study bio!?!?!?!?!

1. You like to dye your hair funky colours.
2. Keep your hang very very long.
3. Green!
4. I like shopping with you!
5. Eating hip hop icecream with you in the canteen.
6. Rabbit. Cos you own one.
7. How can you ever stand double shot coffee!

I thought you felt it too.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Monday, August 7


If you comment on this post,

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours (if you have one)

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Sunday, August 6


My day in short.

Cinnamon sugar Pretzel + hashbrown + sausage mcmuffin with egg + approximately 1 ml of tea + 2 spearmints + 2 cups of watermelon juice + bolognaise pasta from surf and turf = my food intake for the day. JUST KILL ME.

I'm feeling stressed. Sorry Beebs you had to hear that tiff. I'm sorry if I embarassed you in anyway. I guess it's full steam ahead. Even if I don't see any results. At least she'll see me studying. And won't have anything to say.

And I am still craving for hashbrowns.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Friday, August 4


More random postsecrets I found.

Sometimes I do the second. But the first postcard really made me wonder about the past. I went into friendster today and I read a personal message John sent me in the past, just after we split up. (I wonder if he even reads my blog now still) I read it and it brought back memories. How our friendship was spoilt by something called a relationship. And it really made me wonder about stuff. What would you do if you liked your best friend (well at that point of time, a pity we don't talk much now) and you sorta knew he liked you back but both of you aren't doing anything.

Vivian told me yesterday about _______ being an emo kid and self-entertaining himself. And I was rather concerned about the company John was mixing around with. I know John. The company he mixes with are vital in moulding the guy he is today. Well, and Viv said, "You'd always have a soft spot for him." I guess that's right. I still very much care about him one year from our breakup. But just as a friend. And after one relationship, our friendship is lost.

But if I didn't express my feelings and vice versa, we wouldn't have had the memories we had. (And this is the very first post I am talking about my breakup with John. Wow. I wonder what has happened to me.) I wonder if this now applies to me.

Best friends forever. 4 years down the road and we're still having chats with each other. You're my happypill dearest, please cheer up and don't be emo emo already. We all know emoness is a big fat monster out to kill you! I love you very very much, more than I love myself.

I want pizzahut drumlets. And I'm waiting for your message. ): My hand aches from GP.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Thursday, August 3


I want these shoes. They are like 3-6 pounds only! I want.
Sigh if only online sales were like more frequent.
Sherli/Lindy, help me ):

What would I give
To live where you are?
What would I pay
To stay here beside you?
What would I do to see you
Smiling at me?
Where would we walk?
Where would we run?
If we could stay all day in the sun?
Just you and me
And I could be
Part of your world
I don't know when
I don't know how
But I know something's starting right now
Watch and you'll see
Some day I'll be
Part of your world.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Wednesday, August 2


Uni talk/Career fair today was freebies galore :D So many free stuff like notebooks and CDs and pens. Okay I'm a typical Singaporean. Kiasu. Alright alright. The talks were alright. I mean if you are a person taking 4 subj and has an outstanding CCA record. How about I don't even have a CCA!?

Alright. So CAAS seemed fine and dandy with many airport opportunities. Get to be part of organising the shopping malls in T3 when it's built. The sofa in that room is too comfy to be true. The pillows are so fluffy! And IDA was just boring. Infocomm is such a huuuuge thing, encompassing so many different aspects.

Then the food gang went to siglap. First time I went there in my whole life! :]:] Alright so there's Thai Express, Cafe Cartel, KFC, Pizza Hut, Mac and all there. Too cool dude! And the three guys are so sick. Tsktsk.

Spend all your life waiting for that second chance,
For a break that would make it okay.

And then again, maybe I do. But why aren't you trying. Or am I just delusional. Should I hold on or let go.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

Tuesday, August 1


Today was drama. Caught a couple quarreling and throwing their rings on the floor in front of the other party. First hand news. Econs lecture was good. I understood what she was talking for once. Lectures were just filled of crap.

I'm sure you're losing me and you're going to lose very soon something special with me, that we'll never have again if you dont even try to act like you care. maybe you dont. very well then. im all outta faith. then again why is it that i feel so suan everytime you're like this. hmm.

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach.

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